hate me? then PISS OFF.

im disappointed with my performance today. so tmr im gonna chiong more and more. until i no strength to walk. GRAHHH. i shall run 4.8 once timed, then one more time. then go gym. THEN go home sleep. and mug after. wah. yeah set.

im in a good mood now though. cos tmr i end at 1245. and i have damn little lessons. AND i noe im gonna chiong and do well. whoa tmr is gonna be a gd day.coolcool.

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eff off. if you pang sehed me today, eff off. now.

see beh sian. was supposed to go mug together, outside. i got TRIPLE PANG SEH ed. beat that. total KO. in the end i left alone at the airport mugging. can last how long..... 3 hours only nia buey tahan already. best part is i go there do math never bring calculator. ^$#^%*&^*(^$#@@$#%^*^

not that bad lah was doing integration so no need calc. and the notes hor, got copy no copy no diff on. that lousy lecturer all his workings skip steps one. k lah my math not very good lah thats why don't understand what he writing. still. where got lecturer all the workings skip steps one. like that only the math pros understand one. KNNBCCB.

i want jun xiang........ jun xiang come back mug with me lah you most steady one... say mug means mug, no pangseh.

ok fuck all this unpleasantness. on a brighter note, at least im going for a bbq this coming saturday with 4K. we can play lan. not with james though. heh jkjk. or watch lake house. daniel you want say lah,, dun shy.... hahaha. see you guys soon man.

zhicong! get well soon!

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wah zhicong hospitalised. sian. and im listening to Knocking on Heaven's Door right now. kinda like, wrong song to listen now. haha. k change song. i hope he gets well soon.

oh i saw the trailer of lake house not long ago. wah i wanna watch. seems like a damn touching story that will cause ppl to cry and cry and cry. no, im not being emo, im just saying the truth. so you should go catch it too! don't think i'll watch with a guy though. that would seem damn gay. so must ask a girl.. hmmm.. oh yah! daniel soon you wanna watch with me not? i asking you out officially.. hahahaha. then i can sing the song "don't cry" for you the whole movie. kk? hee. and since you think i secretly admire james, we call james along also lah? then i can one leg step two boats also. hahaha. quickly reply me hor! im so excited. =D

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wah i feel damn bad. i just went to the doc, he say i caught a cough or flu virus dunno what lah, and today i was coughing all the way in the LTs. so if you were in the LT i was in today, good luck.

0800-0915hrs: LT 1 Econs Cost benefit Analysis lecture
1025-1100hre: LT 4 Physics Superposition lecture

not that bad lah today two lectures nia. haha. if you werew in these lectures. sorry!! especially you sian and gary, you two sit next to me, good luck hor! haha.

wah james' blog is damn amusing. you all should go take a read. its like, joke of the day. every post is amusing in some way or another. next time can be comedian sia james. sure win one. got experience in acting some more! cai3 hong2 xia4 ri2 ying2 leh! don't play play. heh.

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i have cuts all over. a side effect of training at bedok reservoir. pain.

the other day my econs teacher was saying, you don't normally see cute/good looking guys with ugly girls, but you see pretty girls with ugly guys.

pei fang said, guys are always like that, they go for looks first then realise after going steady that their girlfriends are complete bitches. and at this age there aren't pretty girls with nice character.

now her last sentence was bullshit, cos i was talking to one just the other day on the way home on 53. but you do realise that she and my econs teacher has a point. many a time i have seen ugly fat pimply guys going out, holding hands with this ravishing girl. but since when do you see the cute guy holding hands with a fat ugly girl. nope. guys are fucking superficial. pei fang said so, without the f word, i inserted that for drama. but i think she's right. why are guys like that? are looks that important? it certainly seems so. someone once asked me, are you thinking of sex? i replied no. this was TOTALLY random. i was standing at the busstop. then she replied, then you're not a guy, cos guys think of sex 271 times a day. now thats gay. what kind of a horny ass thnks of sex 271 times a day?? hell i think of handing in my math homework 271 times a day! firstly someone who is that horny is bound to end up molesting someone sooner or later. secondly we don't have that much free time! if im not mugging im probably training. when training finishes i go home, mug, then fall asleep.

"men are visual creatures" as quoted from a book. which explains why we are "turned on" by pretty girls, or anything that is testosterone inducing. so are we superficial? i think so. the other day there was a tv show on. the girl said, 9 out of 10 guys are horny. the last one is gay. thats interesting. i don't know, and they always say women are hard to understand. guys are kinda weird too.

doesnt make sense im shooting myself.

just some random food for thought. what do you think?

you seemed distraught today. ya ok?

Don't Cry

Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Somethin's changin' inside you
And don't you know

Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

Give me a whisper
And give me a sigh
Give me a kiss before you
tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinkin' of you
And the times we had...baby

And don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

And please remember that I never lied
And please remember
how I felt inside now honey
You gotta make it your own way
But you'll be alright now sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now baby

And don't you cry tonight
An don't you cry tonight
An don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry
Tonight

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Had a mini dunman conference today during break, with kelvin lin, daniel soon, han loong,wei deng, james. damn funny sia. and daniel bully james again, aww.... haha poor james. wah i miss dunman days man.. i just realised my best friends are still those from dunman. the people who are always able to make me laugh with all their quirks and dumb jokes. shang yunn for example hides from me everytime he sees me. then he will say " wah shuai shuai.." full of shit. so now i disturb him also. ayah dunman high life is all about disturbing each other, a process called niaoing, where niao is chinese for bird and ing is like, shows the process. haha sounds dumb but yeah. you'll love dunman high life lah.

someone commented that we all like little beng bengs. really mehh... eh dunman ppl what have you gotta say to that.. haha. they say we walk like ah beng, talk like ah beng, look like ah beng, shirt tuck out like beng. hmm even my OG mate said i look so pai kia that she would have never ever talked to me if not for orientation. we are now good friends. haha. ah, looks are deceiving! ah bengs are nice people. rememeber that before you go to sleep tonight!

went home with peifang and steph. they were talking abt cute guys and eveything but unfortunately i was not included. hahaha. hmm damn funny. apparently peifang thinks some tracker looks like shit, though i thought he was kinda liked by lotsa girls. heh. the way home was super funny. once again, with dunman people. wah i kinda miss dunman. a lot. lets turn back time for one year and relive our Sec 4 years. aye?

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wah tired. now 9.35 already, reached home at 9. damn tired. siao so much stuff to do. tmr still got 8k. &#@*^%$(&%*&)*&^*

i usually don't mind lah, in fact i kinda like it lah, but not when im this tired! siao.. better sleep soon.. then again got so much work... EFFFFFFF.

damn funny today. played soccer then captain's ball. we saw the savage side of yi rui today. everytime there is a ramble on the floor, yi rui sure there one.hahah. see beh violent sia. i think he chased the girls away.. haha. end up guys play captain's ball nia. damn gay. but still! damn fun. the highlight came at the end of training. we all sat at the flag posts, slacking, then eujinn saw uncle mayo and pointed it out to us. he was carrying a DETERGENT bottle. probably used to store AHEM. got so much meh....

as he approached the toilet door cautiously, he scanned his surroundings for any potential threats.. then he stepped in and tried to close the door. alas! to no avail. so he just entered one of the cubicles. For some reason eujinn is always damn exicted when he sees uncle mayo. he walked stealthily to the toilet door, inched his head towards the toilet door, looked to us, gave up the thumbs up sign and started laughing! silently of course. now we dont want mayo to hear us would we. heh. we all started laughing. then he tried to imitate, AHEM, the masturbation sign, hands going up and down and all that. at this point, uncle mayo came out and saw eujinn doing that sick sign. hahahahahah. buey tahan, the whole gang just started laughing and laughing and laughing and could not stop. i laughed so hard no sound came out! ahahha. gay lah. but damnnn funny.

k lah end here lah. im damn tired. yes enen, i see you! nat, the link is repaired liao!

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wah the weekend is abt to be over. too fast lah. like not enough time to do anything like that. have you ever wondered how come there are only two days in a weekend? how come not three or four. which dumbass chose these two days as the weekends. chose more lah! then we enjoy more.

ive been thinking lately, for those religious people out there, no offense to you, but do you ever question tthe roots of your religion? like, how do ya know that Jesus really lived or existed. you never know, dont ya? i mean, i can write a story abt this young boy called junkia who did marvellous things, sacrficed himself to redeem everyone else, blah blah blah. Then i go out onto the streets and preach abt this god called junkia. all i need is great persuaion skills, charisma, wit and those kinda stuff that politicians have to make everyone believe me. then 5000 years later for all you know, there are Christians, Buddhists, Muslims, and followers of junkias called Junkiats! like, "hi are you a christian?" "no im a junkiat." haha. kinda cool.

but on the serious note, whats to stop someone from saying that any religion is made up those kinda stuff? nobody knows for sure whether its real or made up. think about it. just like propaganda, all u need is enough brainwashing to make you believe it. if you are fed enough of that knowledge, you will believe it.

take for example, a taiwanese boy, who's father always called him a frog for being so lousy at studies and everything. there was a news report a while ago. one day the boy woke up and behaved like a frog. no longer talked or moved like a boy. just because of he's father psychoing.

you see the power of words? you just need convincing and you'll believe anything. Im not saying you ddevout christians or buddhists are wrong, cos im a buddhist too. HAHA. im just wondering. thinking. you ever thought abt this? i once talked to nat abt this, abt religions probably not real. he talked for quite a while before we both gave up cos firstly i didnt wanna hurt his feelings by saying that something he has believed in for years and depended on doesnt exist. secondly he always gives reasons that dun exactly rebbutt my statement. like, im just supposed to believe that he exists. must have faith. haha. stop here and think. why do they always talk about having faith? is it what they do to your head so you will "have faith that he exists", "have faith in Him"? dont u think that they just say that cos they cant prove god exists thats why they say have faith?

i dunno. 95% of the people in the world believe that there is some sort of higher being of some sort in this world, including me! i know it sounds ridiculous that im saying religions dun exist and yet i believe in it, but thats the way it is!anyway this post is PURELY my opinion and there's no facts(other than the taiwanese boy example). pls do not be offended. They're just my thoughts! but id love to have a convo with anyone interested in this. there are still snsitive matters i didnt bring up. for the simple fact that im afraid they'll jail me of rine me or sth for saying all this crap.

ok thats enough bullshit for today. cheers! im going to the temple now. (ironic, aint it.)

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watched Pirates yeterday! (finally) not bad leh, jack sparrow damn funny lah, especially the part where he looks like a kebab and does the pole vault. just thinking about it makes me laugh again. my mum HAD to buy tix for the 8.30pm show, and the show ened arnd 11.15. reach home everything sleep at 12am.and i had training today. siao... luckily i dint feel the tiredness until AFTER training.

Training was good lah, im happy with myself. on and off can sprint for quite a long distance before bracing. and nicolas is such a good man! i think all the guys loved his presence, him being so patient and nice and encouraging and all that. even shared his history with us after training. for u ppl who dunno who nicolas is, he was year two last year, VJ kayak, the ONLY ever medallist in kayak. Bronze, but who cares! he got a friggin medal! I'd just like to say a word of thanks for nicolas coming to teach us and give us that guidance and stuff. i think we all learned a lot, didnt we? =)

he's so much nicer than someone else. i think kayak guys u all noe who im talking abt. i guess life's just like that. if it sucked any harder we'd probably be sucked into a void. into another dimension or sth. but fuck lah, i train hard, u train hard, we all train hard. next year we beat the crap out of that guy. man. weirdo.

new target: 1. beat him at 4.8 by at least 1 minute. i think if we run 19mins or 18
sure win one
2. gym heavier than him. till he calls us monsters like he called jon ang

well thats MY target. i hope you guys follow too. heh.

i want a medal next year. seriously. pray for me?

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Sian lah. I have so much stuff to do and im putting up a blog up now, of all times. but im too fricking tired! i dun wanna mug! sian. Anyway i figured, so much funny and ineresting stuff happen to me everyday, i might as well set up a blog so ppl can see all the funny shit happening and have a laugh too.

i dun wanna write much. im simply drained. i slogged my guts out during my run today. had tam zhi cong pacing me. fag leh he runs like the wind. im like a breeze only. ya know, those u can feel caressing your cheek on a cool breezy day. and if im a breeze, he's a storm or sth. probably slap you on your cheek rather than softly move across it.

still, i love u man. thanks for pushing me ah. gym was my turn to push you huh? haha. good night guys.

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