hate me? then PISS OFF.

i hate pull ups. now i have gay blisters all over my bloody hand and it hurts. real bad. there's this mega humongous gigantic lump on my fourth finger that hurst when i touch it. TOUCH only know. @#$#^$%^&(^% but still. thats the downside if you keep doing during your breaks lah. but the upside is i get more prepared for next year's nationals. come to papa mr medal!

my pull ups have hit 20 now.. its a little teeny thing to be happy about, but many htings are dragging me down. the other day, i was just thinking about kayaking and everything, when i suddenly asked myself a question: what makes you think you're a asset to the team. i dunno why i asked myself that lah but yeah i did. just thought to myself. and i realised: my running SUCKS, and the only thing im good for is strength stuff. BUT, im weaker than the strongest(nat and yonghong), and their running is probably faster than me. and im just SLIGHTLY stronger than some of the others. like, bench press do 2.5 kilo more. wtf. so, if i can't run as fast as them and im not as strong or stronger, then what the eff is my use to the team. like, got me no me no difference right. sianness. and to think not long ago i was so imspired cos i wanted to be olympic. sdden change in mood cos of one question. wah im having mood swings i think.

thus i came up woth a conclusion. train hardER. not as if not hard enough liao. but hardER. and, dun think so much. just do it.

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