9Wednesday, January 31, 2007

hmmm. today has been a thought provoking water training. Mr Teo said a LOT of stuff to us, challenged us to beat the other CCAs, went on about how we havent been pushing hard enough, how we were NOT doing monster training, how useless we were.

and the best part: we ANY of us don't get top 50 for cross, we're kicked out of the team. this was told to us sometime ago, but for all you outsiders who don't know anything, here's telling you.

anyway he said a lot of stuff, which really got me thinking. my mind blanked out when i was down in water, focusing only on the strokes the paddle the blooody waves, but the moment i was out of water i couldnt help thinking again.

he's right, y'know. we're not good enough. or the boys are not good enough. i'm not good enough. im not good enough. im not good enough. over and over again. i want, i have to, and i must change that.

our greatest fear is not that we're inadequate, but that we're powerful beyond measure.
-------------------------