hate me? then PISS OFF.

ruiyi and huayshan you two are fast becoming my two favourite kayakers. haha. don't worry though i believe its more or less blown over i also dun think alr. we should talk nonsense together soon. just sit and talk. i very long never talk to y'all alr. =D

im having probelms everywhere though. hope everything just gets over soon too. for some reason everything in my life right now is kinda like going the wrong way. its sickening. nvm!

happy birthday yousian! we havent played birthday games yet!

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sigh. my life is in a mess. it just seems that everyone is against me. what did i do what did i do what did i do wrong? all i wanted was to perform well. i dunno why i couldnt and i still dunno why, and i havent been looking for excuses, never had. all teo said was "put your blade in the water fully! thats why you're not moving" and thats the only reason i can find. if you do know why, pls tell me, cos im pulling my hardest and my fastest.

i want to do well and im not lying. i never had, not about this. sigh. believe what you want. though all of you prob dun believe anything i say now. i need to escape all this for a while. im getting very tired from all this.

sigh. help me pls. =(

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haha dan you tell her about what? doesnt she know about pun alr? and the canoeing saga all here what everyone also can see, dun worry lah i won't angry or anything. haha.

my common test is seriously fked up. firstly my fault for trying to cram everything one week before it, and secondly cos i was down with dengue and coudlnt rlly mug for it when i have a splitting headache all the time. but damn sian lah i'm gonna work hard. JC LIFE can FUCKING SUCK MY BALLS. i must chiong chiong kayak and studies together. i like the chiong kayak lah but i dun want chiong studies!

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bo bian lah mug mug mug.

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hey ppl who have been watching the "kayak" saga onfold on my blog, well there's been progress. Mr Teo says he's considering to put me back in cos he says my standard is close to the rest of the guys, and i've been training regularly with the guys alr. everything is looking up, its optimistic and so am i. its one big thing less to worry about now that i noe i have a chance to get back in. right now everything is one big blur and im like, dunno where i stand, cos im doing exactly what everyone lese does but not exactly in the team. but nevertheless! its good news, so damn am i happy. so thanks again to all who tagged. im not gonna say sth gay like "i love all of you muacks muacks muacks" but noe that you're appreciated. thanks again.

kel and nat if you see this dun give up yet there's still hope, keep whacking, really hard.

now my CTs better all pass cos if i don't, teo probably wont let me back in.

hahaha im still happy.

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hey ya ppl thanks for the love! truly appreciate it. im all right alr, its been some time. newsflash though, ive been down with dengue for almost a week now without my knowing only found out quite a few days ago when i saw the doctor. anyway just to warn you guys, if you get the following symptoms,

a splitting hedache, fever, back pains or anywhere else, rashes, flushed skin(when you press, it turns kinda yellow)

it probably is dengue. fucking sucks the life out of you. cant study, no mood, cant concentrate even if you want to. doc said i could go to the hospital but they would just put you on a drip give you some extra nutrition like vitamins or sth and just let your own immune system do the work. basically the hospital wont do anything. anyway i've recovered now, doc said its cos of a strong immune system. so i'm kinda like, proud of myself for defeating dengue withought medication! heh. sleep LOTS and drink LOTS of water.

ok this is cool. its a cushion that can change its form like an accordion. its awesome and i want one.

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